Looking At The Stars
Oct 14, 2024 18:39:50 GMT -5
Post by OctoberRaven on Oct 14, 2024 18:39:50 GMT -5
::The woman known as Gutter is scene behind a brick wall. But she's not like the Gutter we're accustomed to; her clothes are still loose fitting, but not as drastically so; full length blue jeans and a Slayer T-Shirt. Not just better fitting, these clothes are clean.::
Gutter: "So... Jean says that a lot of OG-Joshi fans want to know what I've been up to since the company's been away. And if I'm coming back. And to answer the second question I really need to answer the first. For some of this, people who've been following the indies know most of it, but... not all of it."
Gutter: "So after OG-Joshi closed, I got approached by a woman known in wrestling by the name of Crazy Red. We had... quite a history in the Jersey indies. She's actually the one who got me into a company called Jersey All Women's Sports. If not for her... Jean wouldn't have ever scouted me. I'd never be the star I eventually became. She took a chance on an underage girl who had been living on the streets for as long as she could remember."
Gutter: "And how did I repay her? I gave her scars that she never healed from. You all remember how I was back then. I was... basically feral. But by the time OG-Joshi closed... thanks to Jean, I grew as a person. And Red, she saw that and invited me back to JAWS as she had bought it out at that point. That's where I stayed, but... I was still a mental trainwreck. Jean, Red... as amazing and supportive people they were, they weren't professional therapists. And being Gutter, living as Gutter..."
Gutter: "Jean. I'm sorry. I never told you this. I went back to using again. Drinking again. I know I promised you, and I broke that promise. I hope you can forgive me for that. But... well, fuck, Jean saved me again. When Xander Starr was laid up in a hospital, UBL security needed someoneone they could trust to keep an eye on him. They chose me. I was sick for the first week, but played it off as food posioning... it was withdrawl."
Gutter: "But that time away from wrestling, Jean... it was what I needed. When I was off watch duty, I was getting professional help. In fact, I considered retiring from wrestling. I didn't want to be Gutter anymore. I wanted to be me. And after Xander was released... I stayed out of wrestling. I tried learning guitar. Never got good at it. Worked at a warehouse for a bit... the look on the foreman's face when he saw my scrawny ass hefting 50 pound boxes without help. Still kept in touch with people. I was happy."
Gutter: "Then..."
::A tear falls down Gutter's cheek.::
Gutter: "Then Red... she.. she... can... can we stop?"
::The image skips for a bit. It's hard to tell how much time has passed as this is filmed at night, but the area around Gutter's eyes is reddish.::
Gutter: "When she was gone... JAWS was gone... there were a lot of young girls who couldn't get booked anywhere else. JAWS had that 'bloodsport deathmatch' baggage and all. After..."
::Gutter pauses and takes a deep breath.::
Gutter: "No, keep rolling. After... after. A few other JAWS vets approached me. About continuing Red's legacy. Giving girls the chance I was given. I decided that's what Red would have wanted. But when I started wrestling... fans expected me to be Gutter. And well... I didn't want to let them down, so... I became Gutter again. I'm... doing better with it. I've learned to live with being Gutter in the ring, and myself out of it. I'm not using again and I only drink with other people around. And we've built Women of Mass Destruction into a pretty successful little operation. And... well, I think Red would be proud of us."
::Another tear falls but Gutter wipes it away and smiles sadly.::
Gutter: "Anyway. That's what I've been up to. And well... because of that, I don't think I can devote myself full time to OG-Joshi. I've been approached to help with EMERGE, and I might show up now and then for some training sessions, but my focus is going to be on WMD. Still... it means a lot to me, having been able to go back out there again... and the reception I got."
Gutter: "But before any of you think this is the last you'll see of Gutter, just remember three things..."
Gutter: "Just because I don't pull a knife on people backstage anymore doesn't mean I've gotten soft in the ring."
Gutter: "Trenton's only two hours away from New York."
Gutter: "And Jean Carter has my phone number."
Gutter: "So... Jean says that a lot of OG-Joshi fans want to know what I've been up to since the company's been away. And if I'm coming back. And to answer the second question I really need to answer the first. For some of this, people who've been following the indies know most of it, but... not all of it."
Gutter: "So after OG-Joshi closed, I got approached by a woman known in wrestling by the name of Crazy Red. We had... quite a history in the Jersey indies. She's actually the one who got me into a company called Jersey All Women's Sports. If not for her... Jean wouldn't have ever scouted me. I'd never be the star I eventually became. She took a chance on an underage girl who had been living on the streets for as long as she could remember."
Gutter: "And how did I repay her? I gave her scars that she never healed from. You all remember how I was back then. I was... basically feral. But by the time OG-Joshi closed... thanks to Jean, I grew as a person. And Red, she saw that and invited me back to JAWS as she had bought it out at that point. That's where I stayed, but... I was still a mental trainwreck. Jean, Red... as amazing and supportive people they were, they weren't professional therapists. And being Gutter, living as Gutter..."
Gutter: "Jean. I'm sorry. I never told you this. I went back to using again. Drinking again. I know I promised you, and I broke that promise. I hope you can forgive me for that. But... well, fuck, Jean saved me again. When Xander Starr was laid up in a hospital, UBL security needed someoneone they could trust to keep an eye on him. They chose me. I was sick for the first week, but played it off as food posioning... it was withdrawl."
Gutter: "But that time away from wrestling, Jean... it was what I needed. When I was off watch duty, I was getting professional help. In fact, I considered retiring from wrestling. I didn't want to be Gutter anymore. I wanted to be me. And after Xander was released... I stayed out of wrestling. I tried learning guitar. Never got good at it. Worked at a warehouse for a bit... the look on the foreman's face when he saw my scrawny ass hefting 50 pound boxes without help. Still kept in touch with people. I was happy."
Gutter: "Then..."
::A tear falls down Gutter's cheek.::
Gutter: "Then Red... she.. she... can... can we stop?"
::The image skips for a bit. It's hard to tell how much time has passed as this is filmed at night, but the area around Gutter's eyes is reddish.::
Gutter: "When she was gone... JAWS was gone... there were a lot of young girls who couldn't get booked anywhere else. JAWS had that 'bloodsport deathmatch' baggage and all. After..."
::Gutter pauses and takes a deep breath.::
Gutter: "No, keep rolling. After... after. A few other JAWS vets approached me. About continuing Red's legacy. Giving girls the chance I was given. I decided that's what Red would have wanted. But when I started wrestling... fans expected me to be Gutter. And well... I didn't want to let them down, so... I became Gutter again. I'm... doing better with it. I've learned to live with being Gutter in the ring, and myself out of it. I'm not using again and I only drink with other people around. And we've built Women of Mass Destruction into a pretty successful little operation. And... well, I think Red would be proud of us."
::Another tear falls but Gutter wipes it away and smiles sadly.::
Gutter: "Anyway. That's what I've been up to. And well... because of that, I don't think I can devote myself full time to OG-Joshi. I've been approached to help with EMERGE, and I might show up now and then for some training sessions, but my focus is going to be on WMD. Still... it means a lot to me, having been able to go back out there again... and the reception I got."
Gutter: "But before any of you think this is the last you'll see of Gutter, just remember three things..."
Gutter: "Just because I don't pull a knife on people backstage anymore doesn't mean I've gotten soft in the ring."
Gutter: "Trenton's only two hours away from New York."
Gutter: "And Jean Carter has my phone number."