The Hardest Two Words To Say
Jan 19, 2023 23:27:09 GMT -5
Post by OctoberRaven on Jan 19, 2023 23:27:09 GMT -5
:The view comes to a championship title plate, one that reads "JOSHI KANSAI LEAGUE WORLD WOMEN'S CHAMPION". The view backs out to show Kathy Queen seated in a chair, looking down at the title. After a solid minute, she looks up to the camera::
Queen: "Robin. Do you know why I never called you Robin until now? Because I knew you as Holly, I admired you as Holly. I'm calling you Robin now because I'm addressing the person you are, not the wrestler I admire."
Queen: "When I was first starting in wrestling, just managing my King, he joined a group called the Ninth Legion. They corrupted him into a monster. It took a lot to convince him to break away from them and be his own man. Then, after I was knocked out in a match, he ended up re-joining the Legion in a pact for revenge. They corrupted him again, and tried to make him stay away from me. And as mad I was at them for doing this... I couldn't help feel guilt because he did it because he was worried about me. And when we escaped the Ninth Legion's influence a second time... we both had to go through a lot of therapy to get past it. Only for another monster named Grenville to drag him down into the depths again. Grenville forced his hand, tried to end his career... all the while I was terrified that this time my King would not return to me. And he's fresh from that war. He wakes me up at night screaming. I'm scared for him. And aside from that, when I was first starting as an active competitor, no matter how much I would succeed people would say I only got breaks because of who I was dating, and because of my gimmick, and because of my looks. Speaking of my gimmick, I get hate mail because people don't think I'm actually omnisexual, and also hate mail because I am omnisexual. I am now a World Champion, and just this week I won a title in a men's division for the third time, something nobody man or woman has ever done in that company's history, this Monday I'm going to try to become a triple champion yet again, and there are still people who think I'm just a valet. And that's not even getting into the utter bullshit I have to deal with at my legal practice.
Queen: "Now, these struggles are nowhere near comparable to what you've gone through, I know... but what I'm saying is I've had hard times too. And even then... you're absolutely right that things could be so much worse for me.
Queen: "I've almost had all this taken away from me when Mario Black broke my neck. I'm sure you know what it's like to be injured, to not be able to feel your legs, and be absolutely terrified. That night I almost lost my career... hell, I almost lost the ability to walk. And I haven't forgotten that either, even if it may seem that way at times. I still have the brace I had to wear, so I don't forget. Maybe it never seemed to bother me because I came back quickly and I regained the momentum I lost. I had to act like it was easy, because I refused to let my detractors use my injury to say they were right."
Queen: "All I ever wanted in my barbs with you is to make sure I have you at your most vicious, at your most ruthless. It was headgames, Robin. Part of the sport. You're not the first I'll say mean things to and you definitely won't be the last. But this time, I took things too far. So unlike last time I tried to push your buttons, I did something I sincerely, truly didn't mean to. I had no intention of making light of everything you've went through the last twelve years. Maybe it was the frustration of losing a big match, maybe it was the stress of everything going on, maybe it was the lack of sleep but there's no excuse for the line I crossed. And for that I'm sorry, and I do apologize. I know you don't forgive me, at least not yet, and I don't expect you to. I expect you to hurt me for what I said. No sadomasochism jokes here, but it is a punishment and I will accept it. Of course I'm going to defend myself, I wouldn't insult you any further by giving you anything less than my best. But every blow, every move, every hold that you do land on me will be deserved."
Queen: "As far as me facing your chosen opponent... well, I've never backed down from an obstacle and I want the match with you more than anything else save my King's love. So I accept, and I accept it gratefully. I probably don't deserve you giving me a second chance, but I'll make sure you don't regret it. And I know that nothing I'm saying here doesn't mean this rivalry is no longer personal. I just hope that... after we settle this in the ring... maybe... all of us can have a nice dinner, on me, and make amends. Maybe it's too late that for that too. I guess only time will tell. But if after our match you want nothing to do with me ever again... I'll understand, I'll respect your wishes, and I will think no less of you for it."
Queen: "But with all due respect, and believe me even though I've done a shitty job of showing it I respect you more than anyone else in this business, I'm going to teach you something about why I am in OG-Joshi. Because yeah, I'm a top tier wrestler, but so are a lot of women I compete with year round. What sets me apart from the crowd, what makes me in high demand despite the prejudices against me, is that I excel in bringing out the fire in other wrestlers. You said you resented people who didn't work hard as you, and you don't want me to be like that. You see..."
::Queen gets up, paces a bit, and sits back down::
Queen: "Sorry, I had to make sure if I really want to say this so everyone can hear. I don't usually... talk candidly in front of cameras. But I hurt you publicly, so I need to apologize publicly. So fuck it, I'm just going to say it, and I kind of already said it anyway just in different words. What I was trying to do was not to berate you for not working harder. Rather, I wanted to fire you up to make absolutely sure you worked as hard as you could to prepare for our match. And now I think about it... I really didn't need to, you're Robin Walker. So I'm sorry for disrespecting your work ethic too. No excuse for it, but that was just me being me. It's... basically a reflex. But I know damn well that you do everything in your power to prepare for your matches. I want everyone to work as hard as they can, because if they're better, I get better. So I don't resent people for not working as hard as me. Rather, I try to drive them. Usually by wanting to kick my ass."
Queen: "But for all my taunting, for all my headgames, I give my opponents every last drop of my tank each and every night. So one of two things will happen."
Queen: "Maybe she's as cold and dead as you claim. Well, I'm going to give her every bit of intensity I would give you. If she won't swim, she'll sink. And if that happens... it won't be anger that I'll act on. Instead, I'll do my usual schtick, my big moves, hit her with the Mind Flayer, and move on. At least the fans will get a show so something good will come of it. After all, they allow us to do what we do, and for all the hate I get from the toxic minority... I'm grateful for that too."
Queen: "But what I think will happen? That it turns out she's not a lost cause. That there's a spark in her, one that nobody's found in her, or maybe that she's lost. I'll dig that spark out of her by making her want to fight me like she's never fought anyone before. I'll teach her the appreciation she never had, the appreciation that you want me to never lose. If that happens... she will be on her feet, the crowd chanting her name, as I make her a star."
Queen: "Robin. Do you know why I never called you Robin until now? Because I knew you as Holly, I admired you as Holly. I'm calling you Robin now because I'm addressing the person you are, not the wrestler I admire."
Queen: "When I was first starting in wrestling, just managing my King, he joined a group called the Ninth Legion. They corrupted him into a monster. It took a lot to convince him to break away from them and be his own man. Then, after I was knocked out in a match, he ended up re-joining the Legion in a pact for revenge. They corrupted him again, and tried to make him stay away from me. And as mad I was at them for doing this... I couldn't help feel guilt because he did it because he was worried about me. And when we escaped the Ninth Legion's influence a second time... we both had to go through a lot of therapy to get past it. Only for another monster named Grenville to drag him down into the depths again. Grenville forced his hand, tried to end his career... all the while I was terrified that this time my King would not return to me. And he's fresh from that war. He wakes me up at night screaming. I'm scared for him. And aside from that, when I was first starting as an active competitor, no matter how much I would succeed people would say I only got breaks because of who I was dating, and because of my gimmick, and because of my looks. Speaking of my gimmick, I get hate mail because people don't think I'm actually omnisexual, and also hate mail because I am omnisexual. I am now a World Champion, and just this week I won a title in a men's division for the third time, something nobody man or woman has ever done in that company's history, this Monday I'm going to try to become a triple champion yet again, and there are still people who think I'm just a valet. And that's not even getting into the utter bullshit I have to deal with at my legal practice.
Queen: "Now, these struggles are nowhere near comparable to what you've gone through, I know... but what I'm saying is I've had hard times too. And even then... you're absolutely right that things could be so much worse for me.
Queen: "I've almost had all this taken away from me when Mario Black broke my neck. I'm sure you know what it's like to be injured, to not be able to feel your legs, and be absolutely terrified. That night I almost lost my career... hell, I almost lost the ability to walk. And I haven't forgotten that either, even if it may seem that way at times. I still have the brace I had to wear, so I don't forget. Maybe it never seemed to bother me because I came back quickly and I regained the momentum I lost. I had to act like it was easy, because I refused to let my detractors use my injury to say they were right."
Queen: "All I ever wanted in my barbs with you is to make sure I have you at your most vicious, at your most ruthless. It was headgames, Robin. Part of the sport. You're not the first I'll say mean things to and you definitely won't be the last. But this time, I took things too far. So unlike last time I tried to push your buttons, I did something I sincerely, truly didn't mean to. I had no intention of making light of everything you've went through the last twelve years. Maybe it was the frustration of losing a big match, maybe it was the stress of everything going on, maybe it was the lack of sleep but there's no excuse for the line I crossed. And for that I'm sorry, and I do apologize. I know you don't forgive me, at least not yet, and I don't expect you to. I expect you to hurt me for what I said. No sadomasochism jokes here, but it is a punishment and I will accept it. Of course I'm going to defend myself, I wouldn't insult you any further by giving you anything less than my best. But every blow, every move, every hold that you do land on me will be deserved."
Queen: "As far as me facing your chosen opponent... well, I've never backed down from an obstacle and I want the match with you more than anything else save my King's love. So I accept, and I accept it gratefully. I probably don't deserve you giving me a second chance, but I'll make sure you don't regret it. And I know that nothing I'm saying here doesn't mean this rivalry is no longer personal. I just hope that... after we settle this in the ring... maybe... all of us can have a nice dinner, on me, and make amends. Maybe it's too late that for that too. I guess only time will tell. But if after our match you want nothing to do with me ever again... I'll understand, I'll respect your wishes, and I will think no less of you for it."
Queen: "But with all due respect, and believe me even though I've done a shitty job of showing it I respect you more than anyone else in this business, I'm going to teach you something about why I am in OG-Joshi. Because yeah, I'm a top tier wrestler, but so are a lot of women I compete with year round. What sets me apart from the crowd, what makes me in high demand despite the prejudices against me, is that I excel in bringing out the fire in other wrestlers. You said you resented people who didn't work hard as you, and you don't want me to be like that. You see..."
::Queen gets up, paces a bit, and sits back down::
Queen: "Sorry, I had to make sure if I really want to say this so everyone can hear. I don't usually... talk candidly in front of cameras. But I hurt you publicly, so I need to apologize publicly. So fuck it, I'm just going to say it, and I kind of already said it anyway just in different words. What I was trying to do was not to berate you for not working harder. Rather, I wanted to fire you up to make absolutely sure you worked as hard as you could to prepare for our match. And now I think about it... I really didn't need to, you're Robin Walker. So I'm sorry for disrespecting your work ethic too. No excuse for it, but that was just me being me. It's... basically a reflex. But I know damn well that you do everything in your power to prepare for your matches. I want everyone to work as hard as they can, because if they're better, I get better. So I don't resent people for not working as hard as me. Rather, I try to drive them. Usually by wanting to kick my ass."
Queen: "But for all my taunting, for all my headgames, I give my opponents every last drop of my tank each and every night. So one of two things will happen."
Queen: "Maybe she's as cold and dead as you claim. Well, I'm going to give her every bit of intensity I would give you. If she won't swim, she'll sink. And if that happens... it won't be anger that I'll act on. Instead, I'll do my usual schtick, my big moves, hit her with the Mind Flayer, and move on. At least the fans will get a show so something good will come of it. After all, they allow us to do what we do, and for all the hate I get from the toxic minority... I'm grateful for that too."
Queen: "But what I think will happen? That it turns out she's not a lost cause. That there's a spark in her, one that nobody's found in her, or maybe that she's lost. I'll dig that spark out of her by making her want to fight me like she's never fought anyone before. I'll teach her the appreciation she never had, the appreciation that you want me to never lose. If that happens... she will be on her feet, the crowd chanting her name, as I make her a star."